Substitute for My Love

I have decided that, if I am too scared
Then the only other thing I have to remind myself
Is this piece of wood here.

I suppose sitting here just makes it that,
But just like you, I am also scared to face this.
I know it cannot hurt me, will not hurt me,
Just like you, it will nurture me.
If only, if only I lift the fall board.....

I stare a bit more, deciding.
It's all I have.....
To remind me of you......
But also...... my sister.

I gingerly sweep my hands over the ivory keys
And my decision is made

I will play, to remind me of you My Love, My Master and My Big Sister.

I feel a tear slip....

The room is filled with life and it warms me,
This is no longer a piece of wood.
It is my heart..... Our heart.