Liar

Trapped behind my state of mind, I took your words and now I'm blind.
And everything you've given just kills me.
Your words swarm me through my soul like locusts.
Eating away at any glimpse of focus.
Their eyes flaming red like pain.
Filling the void once righteous and bloodstained.
But words can't kill the light inside me that tears me from the hate that binds me.

Help me from this Hell

Please heal me, I can't sleep
Thought I was unbreakable, but this is killing me
Call me, everything, make me feel unbreakable,
Lie and set me free

I feel the fear takes hold
Afraid this hell I create is my own
Calm my franticness, I can't take it anymore,
This used to be my own world,
But now I've lost control

Strength With Warmth

I thought I was going to die.

Then I felt something warm,

A comforting warmth,

It lifted me up and put me back on my feet,

I'm still scared of the fox when I see it by the woods,

but I feel the warmth surround me once again,

and the ever lasting words it spoke to me,

"You are strong"

We

We try,

We gain,

We love,

We lose,

We die,

Everything is apart of life,

No matter how small,

No matter how big,

Don't take for granted what you are given,

Never forget someone,

Never regret anything,

Because in the end it doesn't matter,

Because it was still a fun ride

wasn't it?

Substitute for My Love

I have decided that, if I am too scared
Then the only other thing I have to remind myself
Is this piece of wood here.

I suppose sitting here just makes it that,
But just like you, I am also scared to face this.
I know it cannot hurt me, will not hurt me,
Just like you, it will nurture me.
If only, if only I lift the fall board.....

I stare a bit more, deciding.
It's all I have.....
To remind me of you......
But also...... my sister.

I gingerly sweep my hands over the ivory keys
And my decision is made

I will play, to remind me of you My Love, My Master and My Big Sister.

I feel a tear slip....

The room is filled with life and it warms me,
This is no longer a piece of wood.
It is my heart..... Our heart.

Slower

I want to cuddle beside you,
I want to enjoy every moment,
I know there is a need,
Please be patient,

You understand me,
And I understand you.

I will do as you wish
Because I love to please,
And see that smile on your face.

But I hope you know,
That I'm still just a kid
I just want someone to hold me,

I'm still very fragile and these
Ruff motions make me wonder

Do you love me?
I know it's a silly question
But still I hope
Your not lying

Just take a look at what has happened
You ripped it apart and I trust
It won't happen again.

So promise me.....

"I love you,"

But how much?

Dying Inside

It's happening again
A withdrawl but it's worse........ stronger
Every move is becoming a blur
All I wish to do is sleep
I don't wish to see any sun or anyone

My thoughts are empty
Nothing but nonsense

Go away everyone and everything
No i don't need anything not water nor food
Nor anything you have to offer

Please return,
Please save me,
My Master