Anniverser

They say that your Birthday is a special day.

A day full of joy and happy tears.

Then why is it cloudy today?

Why is it everyone is yelling and shouting and saying today was horrible?

Why is it I'm on the floor holding myself saying it will all work out?

Pain is what I remember today,

Fear is what I think of today,

Anger, Hatred, Loss, and so many others haunting me

Just leave me alone.

I want today to be the day I smile and laugh

For everyone to be happy with what they have

For love and kindness and patients to be part of the memory of today

I hear yelling I cut trying to forget I throw up trying to forget.

Just make it stop.

Today was suppose to be my birthday.

For You To Know

I need to feel you against me.
Your perfect lips meeting and melding to mine.
I miss you, I want you. You make my heart race inside.
All of it so overpowering, please stay for all of time
I love you more than anything else. Please be mine.

Withdrawal

It feels like decades, yet only days.
It hurts, it yearns for you, it aches
Like somethings missing, my second half, my saner part
But when I return that second day will you in that room over power me?
Will you bend me like you please, you say you wont yet I know you will
I will not stop you either; My lovers curse, to be obedient to that I serve.
I fear the pretator within will make loose,
That precious line I trust you with, will break and tear
All self conscious thrown away.
Bend me, break me, pull me close, Tighter! Tighter!
And I know this will come because you've suffered from the
Withdrawal too.