Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Never Say Stop
"I will stop if you ask." She held his gaze for a few long seconds, contemplating his words, before turning her eyes back to the fireworks and nodding in embarrassed understanding. Embarrassed because she knew that no matter how much he made her shake inside, no matter how flushed her face, or how tongue-tied and anxious she became, she would never ask him to stop.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Stop
You're only hurting yourself you realize don't you?
You stare me down as if trying to intimidate me.
No, not intimidate, convince. You want me back and I so desperately try to fight it.
I can't do this; you're the one who said enough.
You're the one who said stop.
So why can't you? why can't you just stop?
Stop trying talk to me. Stop trying to smile at me.
Stop, please, just stop. Can't you see the damage you've done?
Do you really want to cause more.
Suddenly he's moving and I haven't realized it but the bell has wrong.
I don't move, I watch him come and lean over and wipe the tear that has
so embarrassingly fallen down my cheek.
He says it then without words just a simple, lowering of his eyes;
I see it, I hear it in those few seconds.
"I love you"
My breath hitches
The teacher asks "What's going on?"
And in the next second he has gone.
You stare me down as if trying to intimidate me.
No, not intimidate, convince. You want me back and I so desperately try to fight it.
I can't do this; you're the one who said enough.
You're the one who said stop.
So why can't you? why can't you just stop?
Stop trying talk to me. Stop trying to smile at me.
Stop, please, just stop. Can't you see the damage you've done?
Do you really want to cause more.
Suddenly he's moving and I haven't realized it but the bell has wrong.
I don't move, I watch him come and lean over and wipe the tear that has
so embarrassingly fallen down my cheek.
He says it then without words just a simple, lowering of his eyes;
I see it, I hear it in those few seconds.
"I love you"
My breath hitches
The teacher asks "What's going on?"
And in the next second he has gone.
Quit
You leave me there. There really isn't anything to say.
I can't say; "Well that's alright"
I can't say; "It will be okay"
I can't say anything, because there isn't anything to say.
It isn't it won't be, I nod understanding and leave.
I turn my back on the person who wanted to help. No you turned yours on me.
I was a lost cause something you could never fix or didn't want to.
I wanted so much for us but now you are quiting.
Though I know, because I know you, it doesn't mean anything.
You will fight against your better judgement.
Because you're addicted, and have felt withdrawl and want more you want to overdose.
You want me. You want me so much you would do anything,
and as I sit here knowing you're watching. Feeling your eyes on me.
I watch the clock praying the bell will ring. Hoping that I can escape but it doesn't,
and I did the stupidist thing I could've. I looked back into those deep green eyes, and I lost.
I can't say; "Well that's alright"
I can't say; "It will be okay"
I can't say anything, because there isn't anything to say.
It isn't it won't be, I nod understanding and leave.
I turn my back on the person who wanted to help. No you turned yours on me.
I was a lost cause something you could never fix or didn't want to.
I wanted so much for us but now you are quiting.
Though I know, because I know you, it doesn't mean anything.
You will fight against your better judgement.
Because you're addicted, and have felt withdrawl and want more you want to overdose.
You want me. You want me so much you would do anything,
and as I sit here knowing you're watching. Feeling your eyes on me.
I watch the clock praying the bell will ring. Hoping that I can escape but it doesn't,
and I did the stupidist thing I could've. I looked back into those deep green eyes, and I lost.
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